感謝

この場をかりて二つの事に感謝したいと思います！

１つめ、私の命ジーザス！！

２つめ、ファミリー

ジーザスがいなかったら私も存在しないし、これほどの自由を体験できなかった。

辛いことは今だってあるし

苦しい事だってある

でもジーザスがお手本をもう見せてくれた。

聖書には沢山の知恵が書いてある

けど何よりも全てに神様のハートが表されてる

何よりも開かれた心と純粋な信仰を私に求めてる神様。
信じたい、ではなく信じる
大きいことは自分の領域を超えてるから信仰をおくことが出来ても
でも私たちの道は信仰の道、そこがパラダイスに感じても砂漠のように乾いた地でも

求めたい、ではなく求める

赦したい、ではなく赦す

愛したい、ではなく愛する

信仰がなくては、神に喜ばれることはできません。

神に近づく者は、神がおられることと、

神を求める者には報いてくださる方であることとを、

信じなければならないのです。（ヘブル１１：６）

自分でなんとか出来ると思ってる小さなものを神様にゆだねることが難しかったりする。

そこに何が待っているかも気にしない、私たちのうちには生ける希望が存在するから。

全ての事に希望を持てる事、命を見いだす事が出来る事、イエス様の十字架とよみがえりで

死も罪も恐れも不安も恥も私をしばく事がない、感謝！私は喜びと平安をもつことができる。

二つ目ファミリー

年齢が上がれば上がるほど兄弟といるのが楽しくなる。

物事の見方や考え方が人それぞれですごく楽しい

違うイエス様の部分が見えるからほんとに最高

エリック（長男）

自由、周りに流されない所が凄く好きだし、自分が思っている事をはっきりいえるしでも新しいアイディアにもオープンで。

尊敬してる。しっかりしているし、何よりも「努力は実る」という証に満ちあふれた人だと思う。新しい事に挑戦したり、自分を成長させる事を常に選ぶお兄ちゃんはヤバいなーって思う。でもその一つ一つの糧も楽しんでる所がまたいいんですよね。

努力、忠実、自由、忍耐、素

ローレン（長女）

６ヶ月前に娘が生まれてから本当にいいお母さんだなぁーって思います。沢山の賜物をもっていて才能があってカリスマもあって

ローレン何無いの？って思うくらい多才なんです。そしたらきっとプライドに満ちあふれると思うでしょ？！

でもローレンの素晴らしい所は全部神様から与えられているものだと確信していて人を祝福し神様の喜びとなるようにって、

そんで本当に回りはめっちゃ祝福されるし、彼女のおもてなしは最高です：）

多才、完璧、謙遜、光、母

ラナ（次女）

うん、パワフル。すべての面で彼女は力強い、だって力強い神様にすべてゆだねてるから、自然体でこれまた自由で気さく。

ラナといると色々どうでもよくなってきて凄く気楽。怒りたくても笑っちゃたりしてしまう楽しいラナです。

おちゃらけてるけどめちゃくちゃしっかりしていて彼女の口からでてくる知恵もすごく深くて。一緒にいるとチャレンジされるし癒されるし

ラナの存在が沢山の人の喜びと楽しみなのがすごく分かります。

パワフル、知恵、笑、宇宙、楽

ライアン（次男）

今唯一家族で海外にいる末っ子ライアン。しっかりもので情に厚くて、思いやりたっぷりの筋肉マン。マジでヒーローなんじゃないかって思うくらい沢山の人を今まで慰め励ましてきて、きっとコレからも沢山の人をこの世から受けたうそや傷から解放するお手伝いを神様とするんじゃないかなって思います。素直でまっすぐで御国男子ですwww今はハワイにいるから会えなくて寂しいけど冬に帰ってくるのを楽しみにしてて、ハワイでどれだけ成長したかを見せられ感化されるのを待ち望んでいます！

パッション、率直、やさしさ、友、誠実

ヤバいでしょ？こんな兄弟の間で生まれて育ったって宝物のような経験でこれからもっと成長して大人になるにあたって兄弟から沢山学べる事がとっても嬉しいです(*´艸｀)

Made by God

God made You

God chose You

God breathed Life and

Called You into Existence 

Emma was born in March 12, 2014

I am amazed by God's creation. Emma is so tiny, so small, but she has all the organs she needs to live. 

God has breathed life into her and her existence is a light to the world. 

I have been to my sister's house multiple times to hold her and to be near her. 

Wait...what did I just say, I go to my sister's house just to be with a baby who does nothing but cry, poop, eat and sleep? I LOVE HER though, where does that come from?

She doesn't say "I love you Auntie"

She doesn't give me hugs and kisses...yet ;)

but when she is still in my arms resting I just love it. 

Through Emma I am seeing the Father's heart:

How the Lord enjoys me when I'm still in Him.

God loves us, not because we do things for Him but because that's who He is. 

He is only motivated by love. He is love. 

The crazy thing is that He thought of us even before we were born.

God knew Emma; before her mommy held her God made her with His own hand. 

She was formed in the secret place, where no one could see, where no one could interrupt. 

We were created with intimacy, we will grow in intimacy and this is the place where we experience an amazing depth of love for us. 

This is our life, this is our journey-- 

to know that we were created by love, created with love and created for love.

"My frame was not hidden from You, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in Your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. 

I awake, and I am still with You."

--- Psalm 139:15-18 ---

God made You

God chose You 

God breathed Life and 

Called You into Existence 

May our days be filled with seeing, hearing, touching and tasting love. 

That in all of our lives we will find how high, how wide, how deep God's love for us. 

Today I believe that I am loved. 

It's been an year

I can't believe the last post I wrote was more than an year ago. Time surely flies doesn't it.
My sister who got married, which I wrote on my last post is now pregnant and her daughter will be released to the world anytime this month! Exciting how the LORD increases our family, such a blessing and a joy to have another beautiful girl to our family:)

I didn't write a single post on 2013 probably because it was one of the hardest years of my life.
I realized though the fountain in the valley is nothing like the fountain else where. He refreshes, sustains and upholds us in all seasons, maybe that's why we keep on saying yes to Him though it's difficult.

2013 was tough for me but it was beautiful for my family, we are more unified than ever and love for each other has grown. I am so thankful to God for that!

So many things I am thankful for! So many things I should be more thankful for!

I am thankful for the people the Lord sends to Japan, amazing sons and daughters of God He sends to this place! I am overwhelmed with gratitude.
I am thankful for my health and thankful for the health of those arounds me.
I am thankful for the word of God that brings life and energy every morning. I know there is a difference in my day when I spend my time in the word or not, that thing is ALIVE.

I hope that this blog will be a place of recording the goodness and the bigness of God in my life and in the nation of Japan. Pray for grace that I can keep up with this thing!

Hello~ This was a about 2 months ago.
BUT....MY SISTER LAUREN GOT MARRIED~~ yay yay yay
Our family is very happy with her and it was an amazing wedding filled with peace and joy!

I was bridesmaid so I tried to be available and help with anything she needed. I think I am getting better at being bridesmaid as I attend different wedding. I like it :) Being near someone who radiates so much joy and happiness is good ;) (my turn will come....someday HAHA).

It was such a beautiful day, my sister said she wants to do it again IT WAS THAT GOOD!
Usually brides are stressed our or overwhelmed but the wedding was such a great family atmosphere accompanied with gorgeous weather, it was truly a perfect day!

Weather forecast said that typhoon will be hitting that day but with many people's prayer and God's kindness and sweetness, it passed quicker. The ground wasn't wet but the leaves were very greenもう最高（Awesome in Japanese）

Here are some pictures ;))))))

(Mom, Me & Lana, Daddy)

 "THE HOLLANDS FAMILY"

Bridesmaid
From Left;
Lana, me, Lauren and Steph

Lauren has beautiful voice :)
Her middle name is fragrance in Japanese and truly she releases the fragrance of the LORD in her singing, she is an inspiration and living testimony of God's goodness and bigness.















I think Lauren is lucky and also Keiichi (her husband) is lucky <3

Ever since I know Lauren I can truly say with my whole heart that she is looking more and more like Jesus as she grow older!
I totally see God's power being released through her. She is woman with authority and integrity.
She is becoming more and more into who God created her to be and I get touched looking at her life. Enemy is for sure afraid of her, she brings freedom through her voice, she brings forth and releases who God is in the room. She pulls people into the holy of the holies. She leads people into praise and worship to the one true King!
I am so excited to see what God is going to do through her. I am also excited to see Lauren and keiichi glorifying the Lord together as one unit! There is sweet anointing on their life. I can sense the favor of the Lord :)



I am one lucky girl to be surrounded by people who are like Christ.
I am so happy and THANKFUL (it's almost thanksgiving ;) ) for the people God brings in my life.
He is so good, so faithful, so kind, so generous in His provision. He gives more than enough!
I love my life, I love Him and He loves me and there is no place I rather be ;)

Prayer Room

Hello!
We just started a prayer room at our base here at YWAM Tokyo.
It has been a journey and believe it will continue to be.

Because I felt the Lord directing me to prayer even before we began this prayer room, I jumped into it when I heard we are starting prayer room as a community.

We are pioneering different ministry, Cafe, Universities, Arts and Evangelism.
This prayer room as well we just begun pioneering.

Every Monday afternoon, Tuesday morning and afternoon, wednesday morning and thursday morning and afternoon we have prayer room running.
Because I decided to make prayer room my priority I meet up with others who have heart for the prayer rooms on friday and we lead each of the prayer room sets.

SO I had this privilege and honor of leading my first prayer room.
It was fun! It was challenging and yet very refreshing.

I felt the Lord speaking to me about our base growing in the prophetic and exhortation.
Therefore in the morning I gave out paper that I cut into shapes of T-shirt and wrote people's name on it. People got T-shirts of someone else's name written on it and they prayed and asked God what they needed to hear that day. They write it, draw it do whatever they feel led to and they pray for the release of this truth that they have written down to come alive. We pressed in and interceded for each other and when we felt the release from God, we gave the paper to the person. Then when we receive the paper that someone written a words for, we receive the word of truth and meditate on it.
Some of us repented for unbelief, celebrated this truth of who God calls us, and soaked in His love.
Personally I got messed up by what was written on mine, I felt breakthrough and Lord healed me through His words. It was really good. It is amazing how God touches you through the things you prepared for. After wards we hang the T-shirts on a clip that we had put in the church, it was so good to see everyone else's too!

Then in the afternoon we worshiped and praised the Lord. 

And whenever anyone felt in unction or sense from the Lord speaking then they prayed at the front. Then we did what it's called "rapid fire" where each of us line up and pray a short prayer. 

So when one person came up and prayed a prayer we went forward praying in agreement with what was said declaring and pressing in in unity. It was also very amazing. 

Agreement and unity in prayer are so powerful!

I love Him who is faithful to use someone like me. He is so committed and gentle. He is sweet and powerful. Even when I was restless He brought me such peace to just enjoy the time He has given me and just enjoying Him with everyone. 

Leading worship & Rapid Fire

We are planning on having a blog later on on our journey of prayer room! 

I hope you can check it out sometimes and if you have a burning of starting a prayer room GO FOR IT! It is so important for us to come and pray together. It is fun and at times stressful but God is growing us and encouraging us and building us to become intercessors. 

"He saw that there was no man and wondered that there was no one to intercede..." (Isaiah59:16)

You don't have to be called to be an intercessor, we are all called to pray and stand on the gap! 

Yay So thankful that even I can pray and intercede on behalf. 

THANK YOU JESUS! 

Love Fall

Fall season believe it or not is my FAVORITE season, it has not happened yet but I love when the trees start dressing up with its colors, so pretty :)
Food in the fall is amazing in Japan! 焼き芋(sweet potato)、栗(chestnut)、モンブラン(mont blank cake)、かぼちゃ(Squash)、さんま (Pacific Saury) and so much more!
All to say that fall is an exciting season for me!

It has been exciting time with my family also.
My older sister Lauren is getting married this weekend!
My dad came back from finishing his crosswalk, he walked across Japan carrying a cross. Glad He is back safely.
My dad is also turning 61 this week!
My younger sister Lana is back for 4 weeks from Australia where she is staffing YWAM.

So our family is in celebration mode but also comes with tons of work!
Getting married looks like TONS of work! I am so glad that I am in church community where people are so willing to help out with the wedding! Fellowship of believers, SO good!

I am also very thankful for the community I am placed! I serve God with an amazing people!
I get cultural shock and I do not relate with all that they talk about (90 percent of our community is North American) BUT I love each and every one of them, they are so precious and beautiful in my sight.  I am so lucky to be given so many brothers and sisters who loves the God first! THANK YOU JESUS and to know that they have come to serve the nation I was born and raised in. MAN I am thankful for the workers He is sending in Japan. MORE LORD!

God is so faithful and kind, He extends mercy and grace that never ends!
He is providing for all my needs and at times He gifts me with things that I don't need but He does cause He just loves giving me good gifts! He is a wonderful father.

What are you thankful for today?
Share your thanksgiving and let's celebrate what He is doing! yay yay yay

Hi-b.a. Camp

I just came back from week of camp called Hi-b.a. which is a ministry I am part of.
Hi-b.a. (High school Born Again) is youth ministry that came originally from the states but it is also in Japan. I attend international Hi-b.a. and serve there as volunteer staff.
We do our rallies at a place that is right beside the school in Tokyo called Christian Academy in Japan.
I graduated there and as a high school student I've attended Hi-b.a. and it has been a place where I received refreshment, confirmation and encouragement from the Lord.

SO it is really good and awesome that I get to be part of something that was influential in my life.

Here's are some picture from camp!
This year I was privileged to give a message at the first night session. I was extremely nervous but God worked in me and showed me my weakness and lack of trust in the Lord so it was really good for me to be broken before Him. It was good for my relationship with the Lord and it felt good to be honest and vulnerable in front of the students it was an amazing experience!
It ended up encouraging the campers so PRAISE THE LORD!
He can us ANYBODY! WEAKER THE BETTER haha More evidence of God's faithfulness and goodness and greatness of His abilities COME ON!

WELCOME!

FOOD WAS SO GOOD

FUN FUN FUN!

BEACH

WORSHIP BAND真剣に賛美しましたw

Time of worship!

Wonderful time for congratulating the senior! by featuring Alice in the wonderland ;)

Wonderful Staff <3

Amazing Camp !

God is faithful and good. He loves unconditionally and He never runs out, He does not stop loving us no matter what He has decided and He will forever stick to love us.

It was so refreshing to see campers being touched by His love for the first time, having the revelation that they are not rejected but accepted by Him.

They all have grown not only in the knowledge of God but passion to pour out the love that has been given to others and most importantly back to Him. 

I am excited to see the growth I will see more as I grow alongside with them this year. 

So pray for these students and also staff that are involved at hi-b.a. for wisdom and patience, knowing what God has for us instead of what we want or make it happen, His ideas are better ;)

Also pray for me as I continue in my outreach phase! God's good during this week while I was gone to camp other Dts Students and staff did local outreach and they saw 4 salvation! THANK YOU JESUS!

Pray that God will continue to do the things that He does, restore, reconcile, save, heal and redeem!

AMEN

Love You guys.