Winter has come

God has been blessing me with so many things including this spiritual season of winter where everything seems cold, dark and lonely.

He is challenging me and going deeper in my heart where it is not aligned with who God is and who I am suppose to be. Being more in the image of our fullness takes some breaking and molding to do which can be painful and awful. Experiencing defeat and just challenge and pain. BUT just so grateful at the same time for this season because I know that winter isn't going to last forever. I am not waiting till it passes I know it is a journey God wants to take me to build my faith, going deeper with Him and just experiencing His power and justice. His unfailing loving kindness and grace that I just got to receive with humility.

The fact that my journey came to a point where I allow God to bring season of winter in my life I am thankful to know that my relationship with God is going deeper and deeper each day.

I feel so out of control but God is so sweet and good I know this by fact and just by living my life with Him so now even if I don't see, feel, hear anything from Him I know by faith that He is faithful and just, good and right. Its so much more deeper that I can go with Him...I want to go there, deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper with Him.

Good news is its okay to cry when you are in pain that I don't have to pretend like I am all joyful jumping up and down like I always do haha. My mom told me to just always say "but I walk in faith" and even in those winter times stars shine and skies are beautiful and it is true. And one day He will once again come and next time He will take me into a new journey. Until then I must receive this journey and season with joy and thanksgiving. Being obedient and patient. Receiving His mercy and grace every morning. Giving praise and adoration day and night to my God, my King, my friend, my love.

Until He says

"Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away,
for behold, the winter is past the rain is over and gone.
The flowers appear on the earth, the time of singing has come,
and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land.
The fig tree ripens its figs, and the vines are in blossom;
they give forth fragrance.
Arise, my love, my beautiful one and come away.
O my dove, in the clefts of the rock, in the crannies of the cliff,
let me see your face, let me hear your voice,
for your voice is sweet and your face is lovely" (Song of Solomon 2:10 - 14)

Then I shall be even more ready to go wherever He wants me to go and be whoever He has called me to be.

All I am His and He is mine.