感謝

この場をかりて二つの事に感謝したいと思います！

１つめ、私の命ジーザス！！

２つめ、ファミリー

ジーザスがいなかったら私も存在しないし、これほどの自由を体験できなかった。

辛いことは今だってあるし

苦しい事だってある

でもジーザスがお手本をもう見せてくれた。

聖書には沢山の知恵が書いてある

けど何よりも全てに神様のハートが表されてる

何よりも開かれた心と純粋な信仰を私に求めてる神様。
信じたい、ではなく信じる
大きいことは自分の領域を超えてるから信仰をおくことが出来ても
でも私たちの道は信仰の道、そこがパラダイスに感じても砂漠のように乾いた地でも

求めたい、ではなく求める

赦したい、ではなく赦す

愛したい、ではなく愛する

信仰がなくては、神に喜ばれることはできません。

神に近づく者は、神がおられることと、

神を求める者には報いてくださる方であることとを、

信じなければならないのです。（ヘブル１１：６）

自分でなんとか出来ると思ってる小さなものを神様にゆだねることが難しかったりする。

そこに何が待っているかも気にしない、私たちのうちには生ける希望が存在するから。

全ての事に希望を持てる事、命を見いだす事が出来る事、イエス様の十字架とよみがえりで

死も罪も恐れも不安も恥も私をしばく事がない、感謝！私は喜びと平安をもつことができる。

二つ目ファミリー

年齢が上がれば上がるほど兄弟といるのが楽しくなる。

物事の見方や考え方が人それぞれですごく楽しい

違うイエス様の部分が見えるからほんとに最高

エリック（長男）

自由、周りに流されない所が凄く好きだし、自分が思っている事をはっきりいえるしでも新しいアイディアにもオープンで。

尊敬してる。しっかりしているし、何よりも「努力は実る」という証に満ちあふれた人だと思う。新しい事に挑戦したり、自分を成長させる事を常に選ぶお兄ちゃんはヤバいなーって思う。でもその一つ一つの糧も楽しんでる所がまたいいんですよね。

努力、忠実、自由、忍耐、素

ローレン（長女）

６ヶ月前に娘が生まれてから本当にいいお母さんだなぁーって思います。沢山の賜物をもっていて才能があってカリスマもあって

ローレン何無いの？って思うくらい多才なんです。そしたらきっとプライドに満ちあふれると思うでしょ？！

でもローレンの素晴らしい所は全部神様から与えられているものだと確信していて人を祝福し神様の喜びとなるようにって、

そんで本当に回りはめっちゃ祝福されるし、彼女のおもてなしは最高です：）

多才、完璧、謙遜、光、母

ラナ（次女）

うん、パワフル。すべての面で彼女は力強い、だって力強い神様にすべてゆだねてるから、自然体でこれまた自由で気さく。

ラナといると色々どうでもよくなってきて凄く気楽。怒りたくても笑っちゃたりしてしまう楽しいラナです。

おちゃらけてるけどめちゃくちゃしっかりしていて彼女の口からでてくる知恵もすごく深くて。一緒にいるとチャレンジされるし癒されるし

ラナの存在が沢山の人の喜びと楽しみなのがすごく分かります。

パワフル、知恵、笑、宇宙、楽

ライアン（次男）

今唯一家族で海外にいる末っ子ライアン。しっかりもので情に厚くて、思いやりたっぷりの筋肉マン。マジでヒーローなんじゃないかって思うくらい沢山の人を今まで慰め励ましてきて、きっとコレからも沢山の人をこの世から受けたうそや傷から解放するお手伝いを神様とするんじゃないかなって思います。素直でまっすぐで御国男子ですwww今はハワイにいるから会えなくて寂しいけど冬に帰ってくるのを楽しみにしてて、ハワイでどれだけ成長したかを見せられ感化されるのを待ち望んでいます！

パッション、率直、やさしさ、友、誠実

ヤバいでしょ？こんな兄弟の間で生まれて育ったって宝物のような経験でこれからもっと成長して大人になるにあたって兄弟から沢山学べる事がとっても嬉しいです(*´艸｀)

Made by God

God made You

God chose You

God breathed Life and

Called You into Existence 

Emma was born in March 12, 2014

I am amazed by God's creation. Emma is so tiny, so small, but she has all the organs she needs to live. 

God has breathed life into her and her existence is a light to the world. 

I have been to my sister's house multiple times to hold her and to be near her. 

Wait...what did I just say, I go to my sister's house just to be with a baby who does nothing but cry, poop, eat and sleep? I LOVE HER though, where does that come from?

She doesn't say "I love you Auntie"

She doesn't give me hugs and kisses...yet ;)

but when she is still in my arms resting I just love it. 

Through Emma I am seeing the Father's heart:

How the Lord enjoys me when I'm still in Him.

God loves us, not because we do things for Him but because that's who He is. 

He is only motivated by love. He is love. 

The crazy thing is that He thought of us even before we were born.

God knew Emma; before her mommy held her God made her with His own hand. 

She was formed in the secret place, where no one could see, where no one could interrupt. 

We were created with intimacy, we will grow in intimacy and this is the place where we experience an amazing depth of love for us. 

This is our life, this is our journey-- 

to know that we were created by love, created with love and created for love.

"My frame was not hidden from You, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in Your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. 

I awake, and I am still with You."

--- Psalm 139:15-18 ---

God made You

God chose You 

God breathed Life and 

Called You into Existence 

May our days be filled with seeing, hearing, touching and tasting love. 

That in all of our lives we will find how high, how wide, how deep God's love for us. 

Today I believe that I am loved. 

It's been an year

I can't believe the last post I wrote was more than an year ago. Time surely flies doesn't it.
My sister who got married, which I wrote on my last post is now pregnant and her daughter will be released to the world anytime this month! Exciting how the LORD increases our family, such a blessing and a joy to have another beautiful girl to our family:)

I didn't write a single post on 2013 probably because it was one of the hardest years of my life.
I realized though the fountain in the valley is nothing like the fountain else where. He refreshes, sustains and upholds us in all seasons, maybe that's why we keep on saying yes to Him though it's difficult.

2013 was tough for me but it was beautiful for my family, we are more unified than ever and love for each other has grown. I am so thankful to God for that!

So many things I am thankful for! So many things I should be more thankful for!

I am thankful for the people the Lord sends to Japan, amazing sons and daughters of God He sends to this place! I am overwhelmed with gratitude.
I am thankful for my health and thankful for the health of those arounds me.
I am thankful for the word of God that brings life and energy every morning. I know there is a difference in my day when I spend my time in the word or not, that thing is ALIVE.

I hope that this blog will be a place of recording the goodness and the bigness of God in my life and in the nation of Japan. Pray for grace that I can keep up with this thing!

Hello~ This was a about 2 months ago.
BUT....MY SISTER LAUREN GOT MARRIED~~ yay yay yay
Our family is very happy with her and it was an amazing wedding filled with peace and joy!

I was bridesmaid so I tried to be available and help with anything she needed. I think I am getting better at being bridesmaid as I attend different wedding. I like it :) Being near someone who radiates so much joy and happiness is good ;) (my turn will come....someday HAHA).

It was such a beautiful day, my sister said she wants to do it again IT WAS THAT GOOD!
Usually brides are stressed our or overwhelmed but the wedding was such a great family atmosphere accompanied with gorgeous weather, it was truly a perfect day!

Weather forecast said that typhoon will be hitting that day but with many people's prayer and God's kindness and sweetness, it passed quicker. The ground wasn't wet but the leaves were very greenもう最高（Awesome in Japanese）

Here are some pictures ;))))))

(Mom, Me & Lana, Daddy)

 "THE HOLLANDS FAMILY"

Bridesmaid
From Left;
Lana, me, Lauren and Steph

Lauren has beautiful voice :)
Her middle name is fragrance in Japanese and truly she releases the fragrance of the LORD in her singing, she is an inspiration and living testimony of God's goodness and bigness.















I think Lauren is lucky and also Keiichi (her husband) is lucky <3

Ever since I know Lauren I can truly say with my whole heart that she is looking more and more like Jesus as she grow older!
I totally see God's power being released through her. She is woman with authority and integrity.
She is becoming more and more into who God created her to be and I get touched looking at her life. Enemy is for sure afraid of her, she brings freedom through her voice, she brings forth and releases who God is in the room. She pulls people into the holy of the holies. She leads people into praise and worship to the one true King!
I am so excited to see what God is going to do through her. I am also excited to see Lauren and keiichi glorifying the Lord together as one unit! There is sweet anointing on their life. I can sense the favor of the Lord :)



I am one lucky girl to be surrounded by people who are like Christ.
I am so happy and THANKFUL (it's almost thanksgiving ;) ) for the people God brings in my life.
He is so good, so faithful, so kind, so generous in His provision. He gives more than enough!
I love my life, I love Him and He loves me and there is no place I rather be ;)

Prayer Room

Hello!
We just started a prayer room at our base here at YWAM Tokyo.
It has been a journey and believe it will continue to be.

Because I felt the Lord directing me to prayer even before we began this prayer room, I jumped into it when I heard we are starting prayer room as a community.

We are pioneering different ministry, Cafe, Universities, Arts and Evangelism.
This prayer room as well we just begun pioneering.

Every Monday afternoon, Tuesday morning and afternoon, wednesday morning and thursday morning and afternoon we have prayer room running.
Because I decided to make prayer room my priority I meet up with others who have heart for the prayer rooms on friday and we lead each of the prayer room sets.

SO I had this privilege and honor of leading my first prayer room.
It was fun! It was challenging and yet very refreshing.

I felt the Lord speaking to me about our base growing in the prophetic and exhortation.
Therefore in the morning I gave out paper that I cut into shapes of T-shirt and wrote people's name on it. People got T-shirts of someone else's name written on it and they prayed and asked God what they needed to hear that day. They write it, draw it do whatever they feel led to and they pray for the release of this truth that they have written down to come alive. We pressed in and interceded for each other and when we felt the release from God, we gave the paper to the person. Then when we receive the paper that someone written a words for, we receive the word of truth and meditate on it.
Some of us repented for unbelief, celebrated this truth of who God calls us, and soaked in His love.
Personally I got messed up by what was written on mine, I felt breakthrough and Lord healed me through His words. It was really good. It is amazing how God touches you through the things you prepared for. After wards we hang the T-shirts on a clip that we had put in the church, it was so good to see everyone else's too!

Then in the afternoon we worshiped and praised the Lord. 

And whenever anyone felt in unction or sense from the Lord speaking then they prayed at the front. Then we did what it's called "rapid fire" where each of us line up and pray a short prayer. 

So when one person came up and prayed a prayer we went forward praying in agreement with what was said declaring and pressing in in unity. It was also very amazing. 

Agreement and unity in prayer are so powerful!

I love Him who is faithful to use someone like me. He is so committed and gentle. He is sweet and powerful. Even when I was restless He brought me such peace to just enjoy the time He has given me and just enjoying Him with everyone. 

Leading worship & Rapid Fire

We are planning on having a blog later on on our journey of prayer room! 

I hope you can check it out sometimes and if you have a burning of starting a prayer room GO FOR IT! It is so important for us to come and pray together. It is fun and at times stressful but God is growing us and encouraging us and building us to become intercessors. 

"He saw that there was no man and wondered that there was no one to intercede..." (Isaiah59:16)

You don't have to be called to be an intercessor, we are all called to pray and stand on the gap! 

Yay So thankful that even I can pray and intercede on behalf. 

THANK YOU JESUS! 

Love Fall

Fall season believe it or not is my FAVORITE season, it has not happened yet but I love when the trees start dressing up with its colors, so pretty :)
Food in the fall is amazing in Japan! 焼き芋(sweet potato)、栗(chestnut)、モンブラン(mont blank cake)、かぼちゃ(Squash)、さんま (Pacific Saury) and so much more!
All to say that fall is an exciting season for me!

It has been exciting time with my family also.
My older sister Lauren is getting married this weekend!
My dad came back from finishing his crosswalk, he walked across Japan carrying a cross. Glad He is back safely.
My dad is also turning 61 this week!
My younger sister Lana is back for 4 weeks from Australia where she is staffing YWAM.

So our family is in celebration mode but also comes with tons of work!
Getting married looks like TONS of work! I am so glad that I am in church community where people are so willing to help out with the wedding! Fellowship of believers, SO good!

I am also very thankful for the community I am placed! I serve God with an amazing people!
I get cultural shock and I do not relate with all that they talk about (90 percent of our community is North American) BUT I love each and every one of them, they are so precious and beautiful in my sight.  I am so lucky to be given so many brothers and sisters who loves the God first! THANK YOU JESUS and to know that they have come to serve the nation I was born and raised in. MAN I am thankful for the workers He is sending in Japan. MORE LORD!

God is so faithful and kind, He extends mercy and grace that never ends!
He is providing for all my needs and at times He gifts me with things that I don't need but He does cause He just loves giving me good gifts! He is a wonderful father.

What are you thankful for today?
Share your thanksgiving and let's celebrate what He is doing! yay yay yay

Hi-b.a. Camp

I just came back from week of camp called Hi-b.a. which is a ministry I am part of.
Hi-b.a. (High school Born Again) is youth ministry that came originally from the states but it is also in Japan. I attend international Hi-b.a. and serve there as volunteer staff.
We do our rallies at a place that is right beside the school in Tokyo called Christian Academy in Japan.
I graduated there and as a high school student I've attended Hi-b.a. and it has been a place where I received refreshment, confirmation and encouragement from the Lord.

SO it is really good and awesome that I get to be part of something that was influential in my life.

Here's are some picture from camp!
This year I was privileged to give a message at the first night session. I was extremely nervous but God worked in me and showed me my weakness and lack of trust in the Lord so it was really good for me to be broken before Him. It was good for my relationship with the Lord and it felt good to be honest and vulnerable in front of the students it was an amazing experience!
It ended up encouraging the campers so PRAISE THE LORD!
He can us ANYBODY! WEAKER THE BETTER haha More evidence of God's faithfulness and goodness and greatness of His abilities COME ON!

WELCOME!

FOOD WAS SO GOOD

FUN FUN FUN!

BEACH

WORSHIP BAND真剣に賛美しましたw

Time of worship!

Wonderful time for congratulating the senior! by featuring Alice in the wonderland ;)

Wonderful Staff <3

Amazing Camp !

God is faithful and good. He loves unconditionally and He never runs out, He does not stop loving us no matter what He has decided and He will forever stick to love us.

It was so refreshing to see campers being touched by His love for the first time, having the revelation that they are not rejected but accepted by Him.

They all have grown not only in the knowledge of God but passion to pour out the love that has been given to others and most importantly back to Him. 

I am excited to see the growth I will see more as I grow alongside with them this year. 

So pray for these students and also staff that are involved at hi-b.a. for wisdom and patience, knowing what God has for us instead of what we want or make it happen, His ideas are better ;)

Also pray for me as I continue in my outreach phase! God's good during this week while I was gone to camp other Dts Students and staff did local outreach and they saw 4 salvation! THANK YOU JESUS!

Pray that God will continue to do the things that He does, restore, reconcile, save, heal and redeem!

AMEN

Love You guys. 

It's been long time once again haha PHILIPPINES

Hello people YES you clearly know I am not good at blogs but I will NOT give up I will keep trying!

I just now came back from outreach trip to the Philippines, this was my second time to lead a team to Philippines it was different experience once again and it was amazing what God has done through each of us!

Our reasons for going to Philippines was to reach the bar girls and stopping prostitution there.
We went to the bars at night and spend time loving on them, letting them know that they are loved by Jesus and that they are precious in the kingdom.
We also went to the countryside of the Philippines and reached to the tribal there, we went to couple other different ministries in the Philippines and encouraging the body of Christ, and also loving and caring the base that we stayed at. The base has many girls living and working majority escaped the bars to get equipped to learn other ways to get jobs and getting discipled learning/knowing more about Jesus :)

Isn't that neat? I am so blessed and honored to be able to work for the kingdom just loving Him first and loving on the people around me no matter where there are at. JUST LIKE JESUS.



Here are some pictures to show you my trip with my team

My Lovely Team from YWAM Tokyo DTS :)

I love each and every single one of them and each of them were totally being the light in the Philippines

The Kids at the base where we stayed at. This is our base's third time going to outreach in the Philippines and everytime we stay at this base and one of our highlights are being able to love the people here at the base and partnering with their vision in saving girls/ladyboys from prostitution.

This year we also had New Zealand team with us and we worked together in ministries & evangelism!

They were an amazing team that brought refreshment to us ;)

Others are people (workers, disciples, staff) that lives at this base! 

They have become family to us :)

These are some of the bar girls from "Escape bar" 

The girls are very open to the word of God many of them call themselves Christians and Philippine is known as a Christian Nation and so the truth has been spoken everywhere here. 

It was good to just love on them and have fun with them praying for them and encouraging them to live their lives worthy of His calling. Many of the girls I met was under 22 and they already have kids and their means to work is for their children's needs.

None of them enjoys the job but they often say they have no choice. 

Pray that they will return to God and rely on every needs from Him!

We had an open air where we did many skits/worship/short messages to spread the gospel it was great! 

Many people actually gathered around and stayed for the whole thing! 

Our team was able to reach to people and pray for people. 

One person was saved that they from one of the guys evangelizing to him! Praise the Lord!

And OFCOURSE I would find a Japanese! Hehehe 

Praying for Jojo, guy that I met during open air, he is a dancer. He was even on a show with his crew! 

People we met during evangelism! 

Left:Junior High students Right: Family! 

(we were doing a treasure haunt one of the girl got orange clothing, another girl got ice cream, another girl got cones and another girl got the number 2 walking around the mall we saw a family and sure enough the girl was wearing orange they had two ice cream with cones ! haha) We prayed for them and it was great ;) GOD IS SO GOOD

They have Bible study every week at the bar!!! Isn't that awesome!? We went there and we did worship, testimony from former prostitute and short messages, afterwards we got into a small group and prayed for the girls many were touched! 

Haha We went on a hike to tribal church, it was amazing beautiful and adventurous!
It was worth the walk. City girl like me had a little rough time ;p But the view was gorgeous!


We also went to Kingdom Kids where many street kids are and they have ministry where it is basically like a Children church! Majority are children and older kids are discipling younger kids and it is so precious to see faith like a child right in front of you!

We finished are outreach with Dance party at the base and it was pouring rain which made the party way more fun!!!! We praised God and had fun and loved on each other.

Saying goodbyes was tough and it was hard for the people there as well but we believe in faith that what we have done will bear eternal fruit! We did 24hr burn which also was an amazing time for all of us. Students loved it, learned from it and they grew just this two weeks so I am looking forward to rest of what our local outreach here in Japan will look like!

Continue to pray for me and support me in the ways you can ;)

I love you all and appreciate all that you do for me !

It's been long time...

I said I was not well with updating blogs haha
Life has been wonderful! Went through some tough season but God is good.
One thing I love about God is that He can heal me.
I can ask in my prayer for Him to break me and get rid of all the junk...that would probably hurt.
But God can heal it anytime. Knowing that I can ask Him to break me and mold me to what He wants me to be.

This morning I was just praying for Japan and especially Tohoku area.
Felt such sorrow and pain. I wish I could be there. I want to be there. I hope to be there soon.
I want them to be healed, I want them to feel release from their pain and wounds.
I want to lay hands and pray that they may feel the Father's love.
Tohoku part of Japan is still left destroyed but I wonder how much more of the heart's of the people are being destroyed through this. I can only imagine the fear and the sorrow they go through.

In spite of all that I know that God is still good, He is good King and good God.
I can trust in Him that He is going to make and build something beautiful.
He is good, He restores, He rebuilds, He makes something new, better for His glory.

I trust in the future of Japan for He has made for His pleasure and WE WILL receive Him with Our whole heart!

If you just realize

Today I once again realized that I do not know my God AT ALL, in a good way.
I have tasted and seen how wonderful and exciting He is yet I have yet to taste and see
His glorious and richness of love. It starts by recognizing that I don't get it ;)
More and more I am understanding that ALL things comes from God and I never create
ANYTHING good. Genuinely good stuff God puts in my heart, all that I got to do is partner with Him.

As I understand how much of nothing I am, I can know how everything God is
but funny thing is the more I know how everything God is I don't feel like I am nothing but I feel like I am part of everything because God who is everything gave His everything for me. That is just crazy.

He totally has every right to own me and use me and do whatever He wants with me BUT He chooses to wait for His beloved for them to choose Him and say "I choose You, I love You", although there is no other way but Him...its hard to comprehend, doesn't make sense in my mind but my spirit agrees in my heart that this is true and this is what I should devote all my heart, time, effort, money, LIFE into.

Being a missionary in Japan is straight up privilege. It is joyful thing :)
I hear people say this nation is hard, missionary graveyard, it is so tough...well saying all of that will certainly not advance the kingdom does it? hehe
God created this nation, He created every single Japanese and He chose me to be a witness of Jesus to the people here. Are there battles? YES but it is so worth fighting for. My God is totally worth the battle and to me my home, the people here in Japan are worth fighting for.
This nation is for sure redeemable, restorable, and rebuildable cause its in the hand of God.
There is nothing He cannot do for this nation, He can save every single Japanese people in a second if He wants to but He chooses people like me and others to move through because He loves partnership. He is always, all the time about relationship. Always, always always wanting to do it together with us.

Today I thank God that He trust my heart for Japan and the Japanese people here.
In spite of my weakness, although He sees every mistake and disobedience, He again and again use me to make His name known because He is committed to Japan more than I am and He is committed to my life more than I am. Lord I thank You for Your humility and patient towards me that You will receive my broken love and broken prayer and still receives it with joy and gladness. Break me deeper and mold me into more like You Jesus. Let everything be a glory and praise to You.

Winter has come

God has been blessing me with so many things including this spiritual season of winter where everything seems cold, dark and lonely.

He is challenging me and going deeper in my heart where it is not aligned with who God is and who I am suppose to be. Being more in the image of our fullness takes some breaking and molding to do which can be painful and awful. Experiencing defeat and just challenge and pain. BUT just so grateful at the same time for this season because I know that winter isn't going to last forever. I am not waiting till it passes I know it is a journey God wants to take me to build my faith, going deeper with Him and just experiencing His power and justice. His unfailing loving kindness and grace that I just got to receive with humility.

The fact that my journey came to a point where I allow God to bring season of winter in my life I am thankful to know that my relationship with God is going deeper and deeper each day.

I feel so out of control but God is so sweet and good I know this by fact and just by living my life with Him so now even if I don't see, feel, hear anything from Him I know by faith that He is faithful and just, good and right. Its so much more deeper that I can go with Him...I want to go there, deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper with Him.

Good news is its okay to cry when you are in pain that I don't have to pretend like I am all joyful jumping up and down like I always do haha. My mom told me to just always say "but I walk in faith" and even in those winter times stars shine and skies are beautiful and it is true. And one day He will once again come and next time He will take me into a new journey. Until then I must receive this journey and season with joy and thanksgiving. Being obedient and patient. Receiving His mercy and grace every morning. Giving praise and adoration day and night to my God, my King, my friend, my love.

Until He says

"Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away,
for behold, the winter is past the rain is over and gone.
The flowers appear on the earth, the time of singing has come,
and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land.
The fig tree ripens its figs, and the vines are in blossom;
they give forth fragrance.
Arise, my love, my beautiful one and come away.
O my dove, in the clefts of the rock, in the crannies of the cliff,
let me see your face, let me hear your voice,
for your voice is sweet and your face is lovely" (Song of Solomon 2:10 - 14)

Then I shall be even more ready to go wherever He wants me to go and be whoever He has called me to be.

All I am His and He is mine.

Sunday

I went to church on sunday and it is amazing what had taken place :)
I attended the service and I led worship with the band and fellowship afterwards and I was about to go home and one of the members of the church hands over me this guy to me and tells him "oh she can pray healing for you" I was shocked. I mean I have been going to this church for 7 years or so and they've supported me to go to YWAM DTS and when I came back I shared stories after stories about God's miracles and His power but it wasn't really clicking to them because it is not what we see here in Japan regularly on sundays. I remember God clearly telling me to go under them and serve. Times and times again when I humbled myself and served God has given me opportunities to share and minister to people. It is so good. They now know me and trust me and them allowing me to pray for healing for this guy just made my day. The pain left him too by the way so double plus!
Writing this just reminds me of the scriptures that talks about God blessing those who are humble and contrite. I must learn that more. Jesus served people. Our GOd is humble..so if I'm not..ummm something is wrong.

In the afternoon I was able to catch up with my cousin who I adore and respect so much.
During this week's lecture the speaker talked on true fellowship, asking us do we have friends that we can say in love that they are not walking in freedom, truth and love that they are able to minister them right there and the bond goes deeper. When he was speaking that something in my heart sank cause I felt like I did not really have that kind of friends where I can say what they are doing wrong and they would trust me that I am saying in love and not in a prideful way and a friend that allows me to minister to their heart..it kind of grieved me for a bit but I know God has given me amazing friends who cares and loves me so I just need to risk it and when they are not walking in truth to confront them...that is true love.
Anyways so I was able to not really confront here but when deep to her wound and challenged her to expose it to and forgive those who have hurt her. At first I could tell she wasn't sure about it but then she says "where do I do that, now?" and so I was like " yea lets do it right now" so right there at subway (perfect) we just prayed and she was able to just pray forgiveness, she repented, she blessed those who hurt her, she rebuked every assignment of the enemies and asked holy spirit to minister to her.
It was AMAZING, So good cause I could totally tell the lightness of heart in her. She smiles and hugs me and what the speaker talked about this week hit me. "I have one!" haha. What a quick answer God gave me. "Lindsey you have it, I have given you people in your life but it is up to you how much you allow yourself to let them go deep into your heart and how much you allow your heart to love them"
I miss my friends who are all over the world. I pray for them. Now I should show it more visibly ;)


God you are good! Thank you for my Family and friends who are all over the world. Keep them safe and bless them bless them bless them. Massive anointing and let everything that they do be all for your glory!!

Conference

今日は川口で行われているカンフレンスにいってきました。
悪霊から解放される人から車いすにいる人がたつまですごいカンフレンスで、私はその青年、社会人バージョンにいったんだけど、そこでは癒し、奇跡というよりクリスチャンがつながりあってなによりイエスともっと深くつながってこの日本のリバイバルのために祈るものでした。楽しかった！何よりも日本の若者が声をあげイエスにむかって賛美を捧げてる姿勢、熱く神様を求めてる姿をみてすごく心強かった。１人じゃないんだなって、リバイバルはほんとにおきるんだなって。自然に涙がでた。

Today I went to KAWAGUCHI to go to this conference where this guy from Tanzania spoke on miracles, signs and wonders. He has raised people from the dead and he himself was healed from being paralyzed for six years. In this conference there were demons being cast out to ladies from wheelchair and being healed! The one that I went was for youth and workers. Miracles weren't the focus for that one it was more body of Christ fellowshipping together more and to know that we are connected all over the world. For me Just seeing Japanese youth passionately seeking revival and pursuing Jesus made me really happy. I cried realizing that I am not fighting on my own but there are people in this nation that are seeking and praying for revival for this nation, I mean I knew that but seeing that was powerful and it gave me strength. God in His timing will come and revive this nation but it starts with me.
I want to be awaken, revived, renewed.

Thank You Jesus that You are coming and it is Your deepest desire to come back to Your brides.
Lord get us ready for it that You can come back anytime and we are able to say we were faithful to You, committed to You, Loved You with all my Heart/Soul/Strength. With every part of my being, every single day of my life.

I am the God's bridge for this World

I love Jesus THAT is the truth.
But am I to the point where I die to my flesh, I die to my emotion, I die to all my rights and wills.
Am I really taking up the cross and following Him? Am I denying my self?
No, I am so caught up in my emotion, so caught up in self, so caught up in pride.
I still care about myself even in my spirituality, it is still about me and not Him. I hate that.

I've got to stop blaming the media, blaming government and this world.
Cause I've got the truth in me, I've got Christ living inside of us.
And He longs to manifest through me, He longs to touch other lives through me.
Yet My pride gets in the way, my "rights" gets in the way, this flesh, my soul, will, emotion gets in the way. My spirit yearns for manifestation of Christ yet my flesh is so weak to let that happen through me.

" Now therefore, if I have found favor in your sight, please show me now your ways, that I may know you in order to find favor in your sight. Consider too that this nation is your people " Exodus 33:13


The beauty of it all is that I cannot grow on my own, He takes me there. He makes me what He wants me to be. I just got to partner with that, partner with His vision, partner with Him in my life. 
I will choose to partner with Him today. 

Blog Begins

I started a blog....I have no idea how long I will be able to keep up with it.

I hope you all enjoy it and just taste and see how my God is so good in my life.

Please keep on praying for me and Japan. I will keep you guys updated as much as possible.

ブログをはじめました。。。どれだけ出来るか分からないけど。
このブログを通して私の信じる神様がどれだけ私の人生を祝福してるかを
みんながかんじることができればうれしいです！
引き続き私のためそして日本とためにお祈りお願いします。